From Unseen to Loved: A Saturday Shower Revelation

Hello everyone,

This is my first time sharing something personal in a public space (though I’m not sure how public this is just yet 😄). I think I’ll keep it this way and continue sharing my journey here.

Now, back to my shower story.

As I was showering today, I had a moment of realization. I noticed how much more I take care of my body now—choosing better products, paying attention to what it needs. In the past, I would never have spent money on quality products. A shower gel was just a shower gel, no matter the price.

But today, as I used an expensive shower gel, it hit me: I am now emotionally available for my body. I see it, I hear it, and I respond to its needs.

This led me to reflect on my relationship. Sometimes, I’ve felt unseen, unheard, and invisible to my husband—something we addressed in therapy, where we identified the term "emotionally unavailable."

And then it struck me: that’s exactly how I used to treat my own body. I was emotionally unavailable to it. I ignored its signals—when it told me I was full, when it struggled under extra weight, and when it asked for care.

For years, I thought I didn’t love my body because of the weight I carried. But now, I realize it wasn’t the weight—it was my emotional unavailability.

What’s changed? I’m in a better place mentally. My thoughts are more organized, and I finally have the emotional capacity to give my body the attention it has been deprived of for 36 years.

It feels bittersweet—sad to recognize the neglect, but liberating to finally nurture, listen to, and love my body. In fact, I might even start calling it something other than "it"—I just haven’t decided what yet.

I hope sharing this helps someone. You’re not alone in this journey.

Speak soon! 💛